They Say That it's Easy

They say that it's easy giving in to temptation.

That the guilt is only temporary and will fade.

That is absolute bullshit.

I have done nothing and still feel the guilt eating away at me.

I wanted to touch another's flesh.

Feel his lips on mine.

Fuck until I'm too numb to move.

He's Satan in a three-piece tailored suit.

Eyes that drink me in like I needed to quench his thirst.

A smirk that shields a thousand daggers.

I have done nothing...

But the guilt of wanting to be cut by him, chips away at the good parts of my soul.